It was bound to happen.
I have been working very hard lately, trying to rebuild our raiding core after a recent schism that left us a few bodies short and from dealing with attendance issues, which are leaving us with a very unpredictable group of people to work with on any given night. I have been writing recruitment posts on the forums, I have been bumping posts. I have been conducting Vent interviews and the WoW equivalent of background checks.
It started off as just something I was doing for research purposes. I wanted to see how other guilds handled their recruitment posts and then I could base mine off of something similar. The first thing I noticed, from spending so much time around recruitment threads, is that there is a study of extremes going on. The guilds that are actively looking for new raiders are either 11/12 hard modes in ICC or they’re not. There really isn’t any middle ground there. I see that good DPS is a hot commodity – specifically hunters, mages and rogues. There weren’t many guilds that were looking for healers and if they were, it was mostly discipline priests and resto shamans that seemed to be in demand. Nobody seemed to be in need of a resto druid.
Lately, I have been having doubts that my guild can recover from the recent changes that have taken place. We have always had our ups and downs and I’ve always had a feeling that we could get through things and that there was still potential there. I would look at the pieces of the puzzle and still see the picture on the box that could be formed, if we put the pieces together the right way. I don’t see that anymore. Our realm has a lot to do with it. The talent pool is extremely small and our server isn’t enough of a draw to attract much off-realm talent – especially on the Horde side. We’re losing more bodies than we can bring in and currently we’re 4th on the realm, for our faction. We were optimistic that with some re-forming, we could kill the Lich King and try for 1st or 2nd place. Those chances are gone and 3rd place is still a possibility or it looks like we will remain stuck in 4th, until Cataclysm.
I don’t see that happening. I don’t feel we have the leadership or the strong officer core to see us through this. That’s something I absolutely need in a guild. I need a solid foundation – especially in times like this. We’re down to a GM, a co-GM and a healing lead. Both GMs are extremely busy with real life affairs and I don’t feel their hearts are entirely in this. I feel like I’m the only one really trying to make things work. I have expressed these concerns to the GM and he seems to think there is still some good here. I can’t say I feel the same. I told him I had begun apping to other guilds, to see if there was even any demand for me and that it wasn’t a done deal yet. I was simply exploring other opportunities.
I tend to app really well and I placed two applications last night and had a Vent interview with one guild, mere hours after I applied. They were very nice to me and I had a good feeling from talking to them. Initially, they didn’t seem too thrilled with me and I thought it was a sign I shouldn’t get too full of myself and just stay where I’m at. But my application soon attracted a lot of views and I was talking with the GM a short time later. It’s not a guaranteed spot. It would be where I come and do a few runs with them, they see what I can do and if they like me, I’m in. They feel that I know what I’m talking about, as a resto druid, that I have potential and that I’m someone they could invest some gear into (because I haven’t seen any 25 man hard modes) and possibly give them a good return on their investment. They actually had their hearts set on a resto shaman – but felt I could maybe fill that void, instead.
I told them that I wanted a few days to think about it and I am – I really am. I know if I leave my current guild, I have to leave and not come back. I came crawling back too many times and I think part of them thinks that I’m really not going anywhere and that I’ll always be back. They have been good to me – I can’t say that I have been mistreated or that it’s anything personal. I know it always ends up being personal and I can’t make people feel otherwise. I know that I have sort of integrated myself into the guild so much that it would be hard to leave people, if only on a personal level. It just felt good to be around like minded people again, who want to progress and have a focus and an understanding of rules and consequences and people earning their keep and things like that. I miss those core values and that foundation that I simply don’t have right now.
In the past, I know I have been quick to leave a guild and there have been times I didn’t make things any easier on myself. I own that. I really am trying, though, with this one. I’m trying my ass off. I don’t feel like I would be leaving and that I didn’t give it my best shot. I feel I have learned a lot from my experiences in my WoW career and that I could really do things right this time. If I did end up going over there and it didn’t work out – maybe I could just take a break until Cataclysm and then come back. I would certainly have enough to do in my career and my real life to keep me busy and I have a healthy supply of alts I could enjoy until then.
Hm. What to do – what to do.