The other day, my guild was on its second night of
wipes Heroic Nefarian attempts for the week and we weren’t doing so hot. I think each officer eventually took a turn on the microphone to either give a pep talk or to try to whip us into shape, so we could shake off whatever it was that was preventing us from even getting some solid P2 attempts in. One officer in particular started listing off things we could otherwise be doing.
“Do we need to go back and do Heroic Halfus, because that seems to be at about our level tonight?”
“Do we need to just call it right here and say we had a good run of things and not raid anymore until Firelands?”
My inner monologue went a little something like this:
“Ugh. I really don’t want to do that fight again.”
“That’s a ridiculous idea.
I don’t know what the hell you were thinking.”
And then it hit me. I would be perfectly fine calling it right here, at 6/13 in Heroic modes and taking a nice, well deserved break until Firelands comes out. I would have no problem not logging in, except for the occasional Amani bear run or round of TB dailies. I wouldn’t be opposed to getting no less than seven hours of sleep a day for a change. That sounds great right now.
Don’t get me wrong, I still love the game. I still love raiding. I have no problem or issue with my guild or anyone in it. I don’t disagree with anything the officers have done or how they have chosen to plot the guild’s course through this first tier of content. I’m just tired.
I have spent the last six months looking at these same bosses over and over again. I could pretty much heal these fights in my sleep. There’s no challenge. There’s no thrill. The fights that my guild was struggling on aren’t challenging to me because it’s not a healing issue. There isn’t anything I can do to make the interrupts go more smoothly on Nefarian. I can’t make people hold off on their DPS when they are supposed to during transitions on Maloriak. I don’t even want to think of the things I won’t be able to convince people to do on Ascendant Council.
I’m doing my part and I can’t say the same for other people. I can look at myself and ask myself what I could have done differently on certain encounters and I don’t have an answer. There’s nothing more I can do. I would like to think that the people who are having issues or who may be struggling with certain aspects of an encounter are just going through a phase like I am. They’re tired, too. They’re burnt out. Maybe the break would do them some good, as well.
Maybe we could come back in a month or two, whenever Firelands is released. We could spend that time getting our shopping lists ready, so we know what upgrades we need and where to get them from. We could be reading up on strategies or spending time on the PTR and learning the fights first hand. We could still be doing things to better ourselves, without having to log in two days a week and get our morale ripped to shreds by encounters that people are bored of and that people don’t have the motivation or the energy to do correctly anymore. It’s like when people decide to work from home, because they don’t want to go into the office. They’re still technically working, just not in their usual setting.
Does it make me a bad raider for saying this? Am I a cop out, because I have no interest in completing an entire tier of content for the first time in my raiding career? Does it bother me that other guilds may do better than me, guilds that I feel maybe should not be? I think about all of those things and they don’t bother me as much as I thought they would. At the end of the day I have to love what I do and right now I just don’t.
I’m over it. I’m really over it.