27 Feb

Somewhere down the line I developed a reputation as being someone who will say and do nearly anything.  While this is true, there is one thing that I won’t do.

I don’t kiss and tell.

No, I don’t mean when you immediately run to your girlfriends and dish about that fantastic date that you just came back from, or when you write on your Facebook wall about just how much fun the conception of your first child was.  I mean the practice of bragging about or being fairly candid about the number of page views that your blog attracts or the number of Followers that you have acquired on Twitter.

Recently, a couple of posts sprang up in the blogosphere, which admittedly were very gracious and not immediately harmless.  I just want to stress that I have no personal issue with the people who decided to write these posts and so I’m not going to name names or anything.  What I do take issue with is the principle behind it, which whether they meant it or not, does reinforce the idea that on some level your page views matter.

I have met a number of people who have a very strong interest in starting a blog, but won’t, because they are afraid that nobody will be interested in what they have to say, or that nobody will read what they write.  I have also seen a number of bloggers who made a solid attempt at blogging, but gave up when they didn’t get the traffic that they were hoping for, or when they felt like nobody was listening.

Now you could argue that these people were blogging for all of the wrong reasons and so they were doomed to fail anyway.  I have gone on record a number of times to say that if you are looking for a reason to blog and you are doing it for the page views that you are doing it wrong.  That is not the reason to start a blog.  It is not worth getting wrapped up over and it really can turn into an endless spiral of shame and self-loathing if you let it.  But one could also say that you can’t blame people for being concerned about their numbers when they see posts celebrating these near impossible landmarks and the amount of admiration and praise that is showered upon people who do reach these heights.  You can’t blame someone for wanting to be a part of that and for wanting to feel that way, too.

I compare advertising your page views or how many Followers you have to boasting about the number of people that you slept with.  You may have slept with 25 people, but that doesn’t make you better in bed than the person who only slept with 2 people.  We should be judging ourselves and each other on the quality of our work rather than the number of people that it attracts.  I know quite a few up and coming bloggers that I have seen mentioned on Blog Azeroth that have written some truly riveting posts within weeks of starting their blog, which I can’t always say for people who may be more well established and who have been going at this for a while.  That blogger may have only gotten 100 page views or so, but I would much rather read what they have to say than that powerhouse blogger who gets thousands of views a day.

It really is not about that.  I have been blogging for a long time and I can honestly say that I was never happier than when I was blogging away on Livejournal, when nobody knew who I was, and when I was talking about how excited I was that the first season of “The Golden Girls” was coming out on DVD.  I wasn’t writing for anyone but me and it showed.  I didn’t obsess over who was going to take something the wrong way, or whether or not my facts were straight.  I wrote because I loved to do it and because it helped me clear my head and get a lot of things out of in the open that I didn’t think I could say to anyone else directly.

Somewhere down the line it gets muddled and you do feel obligated to keep going.  It’s hard not to feel that way when you realize that people are looking forward to your next post or when they do get emotionally invested in the things that you write about.  Blogging starts to feel less carefree, less effortless once you develop some semblance of a following.  I can take a look at the posts that I wrote when I had no Followers and nobody subscribed to my blog and see a huge difference in the tone or the quality of the posts from where I am now.  It really does change everything.

On a similar note, we say that we like Looking For Raid because it gets people interested in raiding, but then we criticize other players when they don’t perform to the standards that we are used to in our everyday raiding guilds.  We wonder how people could be so incompetent or how they could have gotten this far without asking for help.  I see elements of this in the blogosphere, too.  We make comments on Twitter that we have nothing new to read and that there are no blogs out there that pertain to a certain topic, but then we hesitate to click on a Retweet from a friend that just may have an article from a new and interesting voice that has yet to be heard.  Or we don’t think to write back to someone who sends us a Tweet or leaves us a comment to tell us that we did a good job on our most recent post, simply because we have never heard of them, or because they may have less of a following than we do.

Whether you mean it or not, that new blogger is going to read a post like the one mentioned above and it may deter from them even getting started, or it may convince them that they aren’t cut out to maintain a blog because they can never pull in numbers like that.  I think we should be doing everything we can to remove any sort of “Why bother?” element from people interested in getting involved in the community and be more inclusive, overall.  We all remember what it was like when we were first starting out and I think it’s important that we never forget that, no matter how successful we might become.  There really is enough room for everyone at the table, regardless of the amount of page views that you generate.  Let’s do a better job of communicating that, shall we?


29 Responses to “Shameless”

  1. Ken February 27, 2012 at 5:12 pm #

    Great post… sometimes I need to be reminded that it isn’t page views that matter… it’s content. As gamers, I think we will always equate high numbers to winning, but when we’re writing, it should never be about that. It should be about being true to yourself and the message you’re trying to convey. Thanks for the reminder.


  2. Beruthiel February 27, 2012 at 5:49 pm #

    O, I cannot agree with you more! I have always found it tacky when people tweet about the number of page views they have. It doesn’t make me want to read them, all it does it make me wonder who they are trying to convince that they are providing quality content to – their readers/followers or themselves, and I often think it’s the latter. I’m 100% with you, write what you want to write, be comfortable with yourself, and who gives a damn if 10 people or 10,000 people read it.

    The only time the whole “I have ‘x’ number of views” doesn’t make me cringe is when it’s done in a “year in review”, an “anniversay” or a “understanding traffic statistics” type of post. Anything outside of that seems to be unecessary posturing to me and I just can’t abide it. Sure, be excited if you have people reading your blog, but also be graceful and humbled by it. I certainly know that I always am.

    • Oestrus February 28, 2012 at 7:43 am #

      Hi Beru,

      Thank you for stopping by! I’ll admit that I’m guilty of the “year in review” type post, as I did one towards the end of 2011. I mostly did that because I didn’t have much else to write about at the time and because I felt like I had come a long way in 2011 and I was proud of that. I felt like I could go back and maybe explain why I wrote about certain things or talk about how my opinions had changed since then.

      I think people forget that what you wrote on a certain day at a certain time so many months ago may not be how you feel about things at the current time. I can look back and say that I could have handled something better or maybe I shouldn’t have wrote that and that’s what that post was trying to convey.

      It is really weird when people refer to you (you, in general) in really grandiose terms. I have had people freak out, in a positive way, when they find out that I’m Following them or when I leave a comment on their blog. I’m like “What do you talk? It’s just me.” People are so silly sometimes, but I always appreciate the love and try to give it back in equal doses.


  3. Big Bear Butt February 27, 2012 at 5:50 pm #

    Umm… if I did come across as arrogant or asshatish, I really do apologize. I was just surprised, thought it was cool, and wanted to say thank you to all the folks that still came around.

    I absolutely agree with you, there is MORE than enough room in the blogosphere for anyone and everyone to join in and share their own experiences, vision and take on games, life, people watching and anything else folks are enthusiastic about.

    Again, I do feel I resemble your remark, and if I could say any one thing, I guess it’s that I didn’t think of it as putting myself above anyone else. There are so many wonderful bloggers that are far more talented than I could ever hope to be, like you and Rades and Garrosh and, oh, you know what I mean. I’m sorry.

    • Oestrus February 28, 2012 at 7:48 am #

      Hi BBB,

      Like I said in the post, I don’t have any personal issue with anyone that may have written a post like that. I don’t think anyone meant to do any harm. I think the posts that I read were very gracious and positive. It wasn’t like I read them to be malicious or anything of the sort.

      But I would be lying if I said that I didn’t feel a little twinge of “Man, I’m never going to see that many page views,” or that I haven’t seen a handful of others react the same. Even if we don’t go into this with that goal, to get lots of page views, there is still that voice in the back of your head that tells you that you’re never going to see that. It was there, only for a moment, and that’s what I was feeling.

      I’m really glad to see that you stopped by and left a comment. Thank you so much.

  4. Jamin (@JaminToTheTop) February 27, 2012 at 6:00 pm #

    Being the first article I have read on my reader in a good few weeks, having taken a step back, it really hit home.

    I’ve been feeling at a lose of ‘attachment’ from my blog as of late. As though I’ve imposed more expectations and if anything – limitations.

    Maybe it’s time to go back and remember where and why I started.


    – Jamin

    • Oestrus February 28, 2012 at 7:49 am #


      Let me know if you do pick things up again and I’ll certainly give you some link love and such.

  5. Anafielle February 27, 2012 at 6:18 pm #

    You know I said this when I emailed you after your temporarily disappearance, that I regretted your absence from the blogging community despite the fact that I rarely agreed with you (even though you might not know who I am). I feel like you have justified my private opinion now, and I truly believe that you are a Blogger Who Should Be Writing Stuff And I Should Be Reading It.

    I really like this post a lot. I think it is very true.

    “What I do take issue with is the principle behind it, which whether they meant it or not, does reinforce the idea that on some level your page views matter.”

    They don’t, and I hate seeing people cater to this incorrect idea that they do.

    I have a bit of irritation against bloggers who are just out for pageviews but that’s just my personal opinion… the blog that I helped start is basically the anti page view blog. I started it with the knowledge that a VERY limited number of people were ever going to care about what was said — the math, the hardcore raiding, the raid leading rants– but screw it, we had things to say and we were going to say them anyways.

    It’s so nice to see comments on your blog and pageviews and I will admit that I have been known to be shameless to get people to read what I have written. And mostly what my boys have written because I think they are good writers and people should care, even if there is a lot of math there. We will link our blog shamelessly everywhere, we have fun with it.

    But there is a difference between promoting yourselves link wise, and letting the Quest For Pageviews impact what you choose to write about.

    That is a line that I really, really, really hate to see people cross– to write about something just because it’s popular, or to feel like they MUST offer an opinion on whatever the Topic Do Jour is, or pick something dramatic because they think people will pay attention. I hate that. I tend to stop reading blogs when I think that they are just trolling for extra pageviews.

    There is a difference between being proud of what you’ve written and writing something that makes you happy, or writing what you think “A blog needs to write about.” That’s simply not true, there is nothing a blog needs to write about besides what makes you happy.

    People should just write what they feel and what they want. Those are the blogs I like to see. The ones that go commercial? Not interested….

    No one should feel like they have to have commercial appeal to start writing. Ever. The only thing that matters to have a blog is that you have something to say and a place to put it. It doesn’t matter how many people see it– just that you enjoyed writing it.

    I hope the new people understand this because it’s so very important to realize that pageviews just don’t matter……. I guess it’s hard though because we all really like to know that we are being read.

    • Oestrus February 28, 2012 at 8:11 am #

      Oh my gosh, Anafielle. I’m not going to lie, I queened out so hard reading this comment from you. Thank you so much for the very kind words.

      I agree with so much of what you said, in that I wish people would be more willing to take risks with what they want to write about, or how they choose to promote themselves, or even if they choose to promote themselves at all.

      I always dread when a topic sort of goes global, like when raid wide nerfs happen, or when the news that BlizzCon wasn’t happening in 2012 hit, because you know that at least a dozen bloggers are going to cover the story. That’s not to say that they don’t have a valid opinion or anything like that, but it makes a very obvious choice to write about.

      Even then, I think you can still write about a common topic in an uncommon way. At some point they all start to look the same if nobody is bringing anything new to the discussion. They are just reiterating the other person’s point of view.

      With regards to your last point, that is a solid one, as well. You’re right – we all like to know that we are being read, but we should be feeling that way regardless of whether we have 10 readers or 100. Just being read, in general, should be enough. At least it is for me!


  6. Azuriel February 27, 2012 at 9:02 pm #

    It’s really a Catch-22. If you were never happier than when you were simply using LJ… why not use LJ? And even with LJ, at some level it is about putting things out there that you think someone else would enjoy reading because otherwise you could simply write in an offline journal. There is always an implicit egoism to blogging, that one’s opinion merits wider distribution.

    Chasing fame for fame’s sake is bad; public pageviews/Follower counts is e-peen measuring. But in our heart of hearts, is that not what bloggers ultimately aspire to do? To entertain, to inspire, to perform in front of a live studio audience (so to speak)? Would you not want your message, this post in particular, to reach tens of thousands more people?

    • Oestrus February 28, 2012 at 7:38 am #


      I don’t use LJ anymore because I don’t like the styles that they have out now, the lack of plugins, etc. I used LJ because at the time I liked the format. I can honestly say that I didn’t keep a journal back then because I wanted someone to read it. I think that’s a very easy assumption to make, sort of like assuming that someone who chooses to write with a pen and paper is eschewing computers or that they don’t know how to use them. I don’t think someone’s method of blogging, whether it be Blogger or WordPress, or how they do it, computer or paper really means anything. It could, but I think that is something that is more superficial than not.

      I was happy back then, but I’m not that girl anymore. I was 21, selling porn to make ends meet, and living in my first apartment. I’m now 28, with a loft, a career, and my life has radically changed since then. It would be pointless to try and recreate that magic in this day in age. That’s not to say that I don’t enjoy what I do, but it’s a different kind of enjoyment than what I experienced back then.

      Regarding the desire to have a larger audience, I don’t think anyone would turn down the opportunity to have that kind of exposure. I love seeing my guides get linked on guild forums or receiving a plug from WoWInsider. But it doesn’t make me who I am or what I do more important. I write my priest based posts because I want to help and when you have that mindset, you’re not concerned with how many people you’re helping, just that you’re helping someone, period. At least that’s how I view it and that’s how I feel people that go into it with that mindset should be looking at it. Would I love to help a thousand priests? Sure. But I’m also fine helping one or two that got better at healing because of something I wrote. I know it sounds cliche, but it’s true. If I have helped just one person be better at being a priest, then I have served a purpose and that makes me happy.

      It’s not the same kind of happy that I felt being a carefree 21 year old blogging about porn and Pizza Rolls, but it isn’t supposed to be, either. It’s different because I’m different and I’m fine with that.

  7. Ophelie February 27, 2012 at 10:37 pm #

    I totally approve of this post ^_^

    I haven’t notice anyone bragging about their followers lately, but then I’m kind of oblivious to everything.

    I’m going to confess. I love when my pageviews spike. I leap for joy whenever I get a new comment. I’m proud when I look at my Twtter followers (I was never well known in high school, so I compensate by making friends on teh interwebs!) and I privately gloat about my subscribers. If another blogger gets on my nerves, I’ll console myself with “at least I have more subscribers than they do”. (Did I really just admit that in public?)

    And I think it’s ok.

    It’s ok when it stays a game (and when I keep my cattyness to myself). It’ll stop being ok the day when I actually notice when someone unfollows me, or when the quest for pageviews becomes something causing me stress. Blogging is a hobby for me and I’ll walk away the day that it stops being fun.

    Blogging isn’t a competition. And even if it was, we’d all be in separate categories. Writing is a super personal thing and your relationship with your audience depends a lot on who you are. A guide writer with a professional attitude will get a lot of hits, but won’t usually develop strong bonds with their readers. A personal blogger won’t usually get a lot of hits, but is more likely to make good friends with their readers.

    I think it’s fine to ask “how can I make my writing more interesting?” or “how can I develop a better relationship with my readers?” because writing is firstly a method of communication. The strive to communicate better, though, shouldn’t ever be overpowered by the need to compare yourself to another.

  8. Syl February 28, 2012 at 7:26 am #

    “It’s hard not to feel that way when you realize that people are looking forward to your next post or when they do get emotionally invested in the things that you write about.”

    I think this is the reason why I need to take time off blogging sometime and have taken regular extended breaks… every time I start feeling the above dynamic, when discussions get really fired up and comments roll in faster than I can possibly answer, it scares me even if it’s a great thing too. I can’t really explain it, but I’m trying to free myself mentally of the increasing pressure and obligation (which is mostly imagined, but that’s how we work). it’s like I need to go “wash it off” and reset things, by taking a time-out. some people would call it mad to always stop at precisely this moment, but I want to feel completely free when I write, how I write or about what.

    I’ve been wondering about this before in my life; writing is such an essential part therein and I think my motivation to blog is also highly “internalized” compared to many others. I don’t know if my cold feet are a sign of being afraid of success though, as some people have suggested to me in the past – or whether it’s just me knowing better, subconsciously. there are different types of writers and bloggers, for me personally writing needs to be its own purpose. maybe I can still learn to handle an increasing audience though, without feeling that I am getting changed in the process and need to go hide. I don’t know if it’s truly possible to stay authentic through increasing popularity…at the very least it’s incredibly difficult.

    as for the main message in your article, it’s something I fully support and am always happy to point out too whenever another blog is particularly pushy on numbers and blog promotion. page hits tell us as much as healing numbers and they’re also as easily misinterpreted, I find (for ex. there’s bots, there’s the unique hits and returning visitors etc.). many great posts are overlooked, while quick guides get a ton of pageviews (as I am still learning every week as my skyrim cloth guide is still creating a comment queue in blogger…). what’s important from a writing point of view though? what or whom do you want to write for? these are questions we must all ultimately answer for ourselves.

  9. Navimie February 28, 2012 at 9:11 am #

    I’m going to come out of lurking and write a little something here.

    Firstly, when I started reading I thought this was a great post! I often tell people that I write because I want to write, and not write for the number of pageviews, and even if nobody read my blog, I would still write as much as I do because I treat my blog like a journal of sorts.

    But then I got to the bit about pageviews, and I realised what may have inspired this post. Or maybe not. Which made me a little sad.

    Blogging is not a competition, as Ophelie said. As Beru says, it’s humbling to have people read what you write, and I know that I am always very excited to have a new reader or follower and I rush off and read their blog and comment, and I did wish that celebrity bloggers would do the same – but I assume they’re busy and don’t want to talk to us little people. But I’m ok with that. I do like my quiet corner of the blogosphere.

    And since this is the first time I have come out of hiding to comment, I will ask this hard question: why didn’t you like the banner Aidrana made for you? 🙂

    • Oestrus February 28, 2012 at 9:43 am #

      Oh, that’s not a hard question at all. I like her banner very much, but I just didn’t get around to putting it up yet.

      If I didn’t like it, I would have sent it back to her and told her so – like when I requested she make a few changes via e-mail, which she did and rather graciously, at that.


  10. Jasyla February 28, 2012 at 3:16 pm #

    I see no problem with being proud of your accomplishments and wanting to share them. Obviously, it is possible to go overboard into obnoxious bragging territory, but I don’t see that happen often. I see nothing offensive about someone celebrating a milestone for page views or comments and wanting to share it with their readers and thank them for it.

    It is unfortunate when new bloggers give up early on because they don’t get the response they want/expect, but I don’t think you should blame anyone else for that. What you want out of blogging is up to you, and you alone. Seeing someone celebrating their page views shouldn’t make you question the worth of your own blog. That strikes me as a bit of a cop-out.

  11. Njessi February 28, 2012 at 3:39 pm #

    Thank you for this post. Just as I thought I was the only one…

    The easiest (and the hardest) thing I’ve done for my blog is to get rid of the stats. Don’t get me wrong, I still have that line of google analytics code on the page so it can do its thing, but I don’t have stats staring me in the face every time I login to post – I have to check the analytics site to see it. And having to actively seek out stats versus being confronted with them every time – it makes them seem less important. They’re easier to ignore. And in time, I forgot they were there (so much so that I have a month of “0 pageviews” because I effed up the tracking code when I installed another plugin.)

  12. Matty February 29, 2012 at 10:52 am #

    I have this nagging sense, maybe it’s because my asshat is on too tight, that a bigger point is being missed.

    Numbers represent human connections, and the more we are connected, helpful, and knowledgeable of one another, for me, in my asshattery opinion, the better. Blogs, websites, tweets, etc., can truly change the world, for better or not. The meta-issue is global goodness and information, not censorship or judgmental nit-pickery.

    Did I miss that memo?

    • Oestrus February 29, 2012 at 11:00 am #

      Hi Matty,

      You make a good point, in that numbers can represent positive interactions, connections made, ideas shared, etc. Note the use of the word “can.”

      Numbers are subjective. Take for example my “busiest” day on this blog. I had earned nearly a couple thousand views, but not for anything I did. It was because my site had been used in a phishing operation that I was unaware of and the actions of those people brought traffic to my site. Technically I could say I got so many visits in a day, but I really didn’t. That’s not something I would boast about or that I would say “counts.”

      It’s easy to say that every visit we have accumulated meant something in the grand of scheme of things, but maybe it didn’t. Maybe someone clicked a link by mistake, or was searching Google for a search term and thought our sites might have something for them and it didn’t. Who is to say what those numbers really stood for?

      • Matty February 29, 2012 at 11:14 am #

        I love my “numbers.” I love the hits I get from places where I know it’s a friend who’s visited, or a new reader, or a potential new critic, or the stray mistake or spam. Maybe I don’t see those who have passed through as bragging about “people I’ve slept with,” but more visitors at a space/home I’ve created where all are welcome. It’s a guest book, of sorts. And yes, I am one of those dorky tourists who always signs guest books, and reads past entries.

        And see, now, look: another connection. I found your blog, and see that you have some knowledge about being a priest, so I can learn from you. Zeptepi doesn’t know her hymns from her elbow most days, so I will be a better player for it.

        Keep a sense of humor at all times, for these are interesting times we share.

  13. Effraeti February 29, 2012 at 12:18 pm #


    I too am commenting here for the first time, and because of my following of another blogger, Matty, who commented above.

    I both agree and disagree with all stated above.

    I am fairly new to the WoW Blogosphere compared to many of the Blogs I read regularly, and so despite my elation at “Wow! My most views EV-er!” on certain days, I know that there are far more people elsewhere – people who may have never seen my Blog or just did not click with it or me to view it regularly.

    I do not believe this reflects on the quality of a Blog.

    I write mostly for me, as others say, a journal of sorts. Sometimes I wish for feedback – that others agree or disagree, but mostly I write to get the thoughts out of my head and into a form allowing better analysis. Honestly, if I really want feedback, I suppose I should more obviously ask for it. 🙂

    Now that I have those who visit regularly, I do not see it as extra pressure, but as further motivation. I recently lost my job a week ago, and lost ambition to write, partly because I was afraid it would merely be negative.

    But I realized that the connections I have developed in the community were not affected by my RL – they were still there, they were still listening, they were still writing. So in this time where I am feeling cutoff in RL, I can maintain my online relationships until I can feel strong enough to step back into forging new RL connections.

    I guess what I am saying is I think we all write to be heard, to be understood, to know we are not alone – especially through a medium where we feel safe, like the anonymity of a Blog. But I agree that is not the reason to start a Blog. Start a Blog because you feel you have something to say, something you do not know how to express elsewhere, something that will only stop torturing you once it is down and visible, even if no one but you ever read it.

    Being read is an added bonus.

    ~ Effy

    • Big Bear Butt March 2, 2012 at 10:23 pm #

      Your eloquence is simply astounding. Truly wonderful writing…

      It’s a good thing I’m already following you on my blogroll or I’d feel really stupid for not reading your blog. 🙂

  14. Navimie February 29, 2012 at 1:31 pm #

    LOL @Effy and @Matty
    Ah my two dear friends have also come out of lurking just like me to post on O’s blog – O this is a very popular post in deed!

  15. Pink Poptart March 1, 2012 at 1:49 pm #

    Blogging reminds me of two things:

    1. Content is the most important aspect of all blogs; if you write about something you’re passionate about, you’ll get followers.
    2.It’s better to give than receive

  16. Zahia March 2, 2012 at 7:03 am #

    Great post, thank you for writing it. I have to say I found your posts rather disturbing when I first read your blog but now I do really love what you write.

    Anyway, numbers are not important. I’d rather have a few readers enjoying what I write than a lot of readers who only come to my blog because it was linked somewhere and not caring or being disappointed by the content. (that’s often how I feel after visiting some of the very popular blogs out there)

    But comments are importants. Getting comments means you’re part of the community. That’s one of the reasons why I started bloging (and why I choose not to write in my native language), and one of the reasons why I stopped writing on my blog.

  17. Cymre March 5, 2012 at 10:01 pm #

    Since there have already been a lot of comments on this, I’m just going to add my 2c. I still feel fairly new to the blogging world and am still humbled and elated by the comments I receive. Especially when it comes from a blogger I have followed for a while.

    I do post mostly for myself, things I’m proud of and interested in. I think this shows from my posts over the last few months. I also look at the page views/search terms (although some have me scratching my head) to get a sense of what people may be looking for to read.

    I do add personal posts, some for venting but also ones to be helpful for the various Guides I write. It makes my day when someone says/writes that something I posted helped them in some way.

    I don’t try to brag about numbers, etc but at the same time I am surprised and ecstatic when a world event guide I posted reaches top view status for my posts.

    In terms of new commenters or followers to my blog, it’s a great opportunity to have a look at where they’re from and check out their blog/twitter handle. I love having the opportunity to leave a comment on a new blog I’ve found or enjoyed.

    I know I don’t have the readers or page views as a lot of you out there and I’m happy to keep writing for myself and the few that do grace my pages with their time.

  18. Nightwill March 12, 2012 at 11:24 pm #

    Hi O,

    I actually have a sort of strange space for Blogging. I’m happy when I have friends reading what I write but strangers reading it makes me all paranoid. Its one reason I write. I think I have (semi)decent opinions someone might be interested in and to fight the sort of silence I feel on my throat when everyone looks at me. I’m still very startled when someone mentions they read what I wrote – I think if I had your fame I’d hide under my desk.
    Thank you for the wonderful writing and podcasting words.

  19. Rose March 16, 2012 at 4:27 pm #

    Hey O 🙂

    As someone who has been writing her whole life, and blogging for almost five of those…I enjoyed this post.

    Sometimes I do get a bit caught up in the page views, wondering why are they low and how can I garner more interest but then other times I don’t give two hoots. At the end of the day, writing is like free therapy for me. I do a whole lot of bitching and moaning on my blog, I wish I could write about more constructive things but I always have so much shit on my mind that it’s better for me to get it out of my head.

    The way I see it, is maybe somewhere in the world someone will see a post of mine and it will help them with their own feelings. And just this alone makes blogging all worth it for me. I too started on LJ many moons ago, probably about ten years now and I would literally write about all kinds of crap like music and feelings and generally just being an emo teen.

    But as I have grown older, my writing has somewhat matured. I still write about crap, but it’s my crap and I enjoy writing about it. I’d like to blog more about gaming, but maybe one day.

    Until then, I’m glad we’re friends and keep up the amazing writing ❤


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