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Time’s Up

22 Aug

I had originally intended to make what I’m about to say in this post a topic for conversation on the next episode of my new podcast, but I felt like it might feel better to get these words and thoughts out of my head and on to paper – or the closest thing to paper that I have, which is my blog.  I feel like getting things off your chest feels differently, depending on the method in which you choose to do it. 

Lately I have been feeling very overwhelmed.  It started right around the time that the release date for Mists of Pandaria was confirmed.  The officers of my guild had decided that they would like us, the raiders to be 90 ideally within a week, but for sure within two weeks of release.  This coincides with the pre-release weekend for Return to Ravnica, a highly anticipated expansion of Magic the Gathering that I and many others are very excited about.  Since I have come back to the game, I have made it to the last two pre-release weekends without fail.  I had every intention of making this one, too, but with the race to hit level 90, I realized I may not be able to make it.  This really bothered me.

Then my boyfriend and I decided to reconcile and start down the path of giving our relationship another shot.  He lives in Chicago.  One of the issues that came up during our initial break up was the fact that we weren’t spending enough time together.  Back then we were seeing each other every other weekend, sometimes every third weekend, mostly due to his work schedule.  When we agreed to give things another try, it came up in conversation that we may have to try stepping things up to every weekend or three weekends out of the month.  This was something I was fine with at the time, but when combined with everything else that I have going on started to make me feel like I was suffocating. 

So, let’s see.  Three days a week raiding, plus Fridays for Friday Night Magic, plus my blog, plus my podcast, plus being a guest host on other people’s podcasts, plus finding time to socialize with my friends and to see my family, plus work 40+ hours a week, and have weekends to spend traveling for the occasional Magic tournament or other type of event, and manage to maintain a healthy relationship with my boyfriend.  How am I supposed to juggle all of this?

Even the first two weeks of Mists seem incredibly daunting to me.  The expansion comes out on September 25th, which is a Tuesday.  I’m not going to burn a vacation day on launch day, for various reasons.  I decided to take the one vacation day that I had available and use it on that Friday, instead.  So starting on Tuesday, I will be coming home from work around 4:30, eating dinner, leveling from about 6pm to 11pm, going to bed, and then doing the same thing on Wednesday and Thursday.  Friday through Sunday would be spent primarily leveling, most likely missing the Return to Ravnica pre-release, and then doing the same 6pm to 11pm grind every day the week after until I’m level 90.  Then comes the grind for gear and rep, so that I can be raid ready.  I’m exhausted just typing this.

Let’s say that I eliminate World of Warcraft from the equation.  Admittedly, this clears up a lot of my week.  Let’s say that I play only Magic and podcast, while blogging occasionally.  I’m already only playing Magic one day a week right now and that’s on Fridays.  Every weekend that I spend with the boyfriend rules Friday Night Magic completely out.  Typically I take the Amtrak to Chicago on Friday afternoons after work and I get down there around 7:30pm.  Most Friday Night Magic events start well before then.  I could start playing Magic Online and play during the week, but I’m leery about having to build an online card collection, in addition to an actual one.  I also worry that playing Magic Online will simply become a substitute for World of Warcraft and I’ll find myself tethered to the computer again during the week.  It would be like substituting one addiction or vice for another. 

Then there is the issue of traveling.  One of the things that excited me the most about getting back into Magic again was the opportunity to play in more large scale events across the country.  I had originally intended to stick to states that were nearby, like Minnesota, Michigan, Illinois, etc.  But I have been very fortunate to meet people in states that are a bit farther away from me that I could go visit and even crash with, too.  I could visit Seattle if I wanted to, or Los Angeles, or even New York.  The possibilities are endless.  I can’t do those things if I have a boyfriend, or a boyfriend that my weekends are pretty much devoted to.  Most of the Magic events I’m interested in take place on the weekends.  How would I manage that?

I’m pretty sure this would be an issue, even if my boyfriend didn’t live an hour or so away from me.  Even if I met a guy locally, what guy is going to be okay with a girlfriend who is essentially booked a minimum of three days out of the week (for a computer game, no less) and possibly an additional day or even a weekend (for a card game), and who spends most of her free time working on a blog and a podcast about said games, even when she isn’t playing them?  Having all of this going on doesn’t necessarily make me serious girlfriend material.  It all leads back to the inevitable feeling that I have that something has to go.

I talked about this a little bit with the boyfriend last night and he didn’t have too much to say about it.  He is someone who was a hardcore gamer for a long time and made the switch to being extremely casual, to the point where he now only plays a handful of X-Box games and board games with friends from time to time.  That was something he was glad to do.  He was happy to give up the schedules and the responsibilities and to make other things in his life a priority.  I’m not so sure that I’m at that point yet.  I like my life the way that it is.  I also like being able to do things to the level of satisfaction that I want to do them.  I don’t want to do eight different things, just to say that I’m doing them.  I want to do them and feel like I’m doing them well.  I don’t feel like I can do that right now.  Something is going to suffer.  Something would have to suffer.

I really don’t know what to do.  I don’t know how I can pull all of this off.  I like where I’m at and I feel like I worked hard to get here.  It would be one thing if I weren’t enjoying something anymore and I chose to walk away from it because I hated it.  It would be one thing if something was being taken from me against my will, like Blizzard was no longer making expansions or Wizards stopped making Magic cards.  I have so many things that I love to do and so many people that I love spending time with and seemingly not enough time to spend on everything.  That doesn’t sit right with me.  It feels like a cop out to say that’s why I would be giving up something.

It’s just like Moroes says, “Time… Never enough time.”

That’s A Wrap

16 Jun

This afternoon I had a conversation with Ophelie that led to her admitting that she no is longer interested in recording our show, the Double O Podcast together.  It has nothing to do with me as a person.  It’s not that we do not get along or anything on a personal level.  There is no drama to be had or anything like that.  She has just lost a lot of interest in World of Warcraft and hasn’t been participating in the community like she used to (e.g. her blog, Twitter), so I kind of had a feeling that this was something that was going to start affecting the show and it has.

This leaves me with three options:

1)  I can try to find a new co-host – an honorary “O,” if you will, since it’s highly unlikely that I would meet someone whose name happens to start with “O” and that I mesh well with.  Preferably this person would have some knowledge or desire to learn how to handle the editing or the behind the scenes aspects of the podcast, whereas I would continue handling the more social aspects of the show (e.g. promotion, finding guests, coming up with topics).

2)  I can move on from the Double O Podcast and perhaps join another existing podcast that is looking for a guest host.  I really do enjoy podcasting and I admit that there are so many sides to it that I still have yet to see or to understand.  I think podcasting is a great way to get people talking and to expand your audience in a way that blogging can’t.

3)  I can stop podcasting altogether and focus on my blog and other community efforts (e.g. spend more time posting on forums like Elitist Jerks, MMO-Champion, or the official boards).

Without sounding too dramatic, I feel like my walls are caving in.  I have already been dealing with uncertainties regarding what I want to do in Mists of Pandaria, then this comes along, and now this.  I keep wondering who is next.  It seems like everyday someone else I know, someone I admire, or that I respect, or someone that I have some genuine history with decides to call it a day and stops playing World of Warcraft.  It’s like a demented game of Guess Who and I’m the one in front of the board just flipping faces down, one by one.  There aren’t many faces still standing anymore and that’s mighty depressing to me.

Am I next?

Outpouring

26 Sep

Wow.  I don’t even know where to begin!

This past week has been an absolute blur, but a positive and enjoyable one.  I had a couple of posts that were ready to be published, but my coming out post had attracted so much attention that I felt I should ride that out before I start posting regularly again.  I didn’t want it to seem like I was capitalizing on all of the attention that I was receiving and I also wasn’t quite sure what to follow something like that up with.

I come away from this experience feeling extremely grateful and fortunate to have had things turn out the way that they did and to have received so much support from people I respect and associate with and even those that I don’t.

First off, I would like to say a huge “Thank you” to anyone who read my post and took the time to leave a comment on it.  “Thank you” to anyone who took the time to Tweet about it or Retweet it to their Followers.  “Thank you” to those of you who stood by me and encouraged me to do this, when I was the last person that thought I could or that I should.  “Thank you” to anyone that reached out to me personally, either through Facebook or through e-mail.  Last, but not least, “Thank you” to those of you who were gracious enough to keep me on your blogrolls and your Twitter feeds and for those of you who continue to put out the welcome mat for me to appear on your podcasts and your blogs.  You have no idea what that much acceptance feels like, for someone like me.

And now, back to business!

Episode 9 of the Double O Podcast has been live, for a little over a week now.  This was our first ever roundtable and we decided to make tanking the subject.  You can check that out here:

http://thedoubleopodcast.wordpress.com/2011/09/17/episode-9-tanknspank/

All 4 of our guests turned out to be incredible personalities, who each brought something unique and notable to the table.  While Ophelie and I did cover a few class specific topics, we mostly tried to focus on tanking in general, so that our conversation could really apply to any tank who was listening and looking for some good advice or tips on how to deal with the task at hand.

Ophelie and I recorded our healing roundtable last night, so keep your ears open for that.  As always, if you have any suggestions on topics for future shows, or if you have a podcast or blog of your own and would like to be a guest host or provide us with some audio bumpers to plug your offerings, please let us know!  We are open to any and all possibilities.

Other than that, new posts should be coming out, as soon as tomorrow.  Take care!

New Double O Podcast – Episode Eight!

8 Sep

All that and a bag of Baked Lays, it’s Episode Eight of the Double O Podcast!

http://thedoubleopodcast.wordpress.com/2011/09/02/episode-8-parental-guidance-strongly-suggested/

We packed this unbelievable episode with four, count them FOUR guests, Ceraphus, Christine, Fannon, & Hydra, all of whom are parents that you may or may not know from the blogosphere or the community at large.  They took time out of their day to join us on the show and discuss what it’s really like to be a parent who raids and juggles other responsibilities at the same time.

Nothing was off limits here.  We talk about how to negotiate playing time with your significant other, dealing with your identity as a parent in the game, the perks of being in a family friendly guild, and whether or not they would want their children picking up a game like World of Warcraft in the not so distant future.

Ophelie and I also include a big announcement about some future shows that we have coming up very soon.

In other news, Ophelie and I were asked to make a guest appearance on a recent episode of the Stopcast this week.  The episode, called “Double Ohhhh” can be found here:

http://www.stopcast.net/?p=episode&name=2011-09-06_episode58.mp3

We got pretty rowdy with these guys and had a great time talking about ourselves, our friendship, what we’re both up to in our respective games, how the Double O Podcast got started, and a number of other salacious things that can’t really be explained here.

If you’re in the mood for a few laughs and a slew of dirty talk, then check out that episode and have some laughs along with us.

Thanks for stopping by!

New Holy Shatt Podcast – Episode Seven!

19 Aug

Start your weekend off right by listening to a podcast that I was recently asked to be a guest host on.  The show is called The Holy Shatt podcast and it’s hosted by a friend of mine who I met through my time on The Sundering podcast.  You can check out the episode here:

http://raleighite.com/2011/08/holy-shatt-episode-7-o-i-guess-i-should-record-a-podcast/

I don’t think I’ve ever laughed this much or this hard on a podcast before.  Travis was a lot of fun to record with and we were both extremely candid, regarding our thoughts on why Blizzard is losing subscribers, how to properly say my name, and how to best handle stressful situations in the Dungeon Finder.

If you’re looking for an episode with a lot of laughs and some heartfelt opinions on the current state of things in WoW and Rift, take a listen and have a good time along with us!

Have a great weekend!

New Double O Podcast – Episode Six!

25 Jul

Fresh out of the oven, it’s the latest episode of the Double O Podcast!

http://thedoubleopodcast.wordpress.com/2011/07/24/episode-6-o-chat-with-a-side-of-vs/

Ophelie and I return and with not just one, but two special guests!  We welcome Vidyala and Vosskah, from Manalicious and Sword And Board to discuss all things related to guild leadership and raid leading.

We packed a lot into this episode and covered a number of topics like recruitment struggles, social networking guidelines as a guild master and as a guild member,  guild expectations, and whether or not it’s a good time to be a new GM. 

Vidyala and Vosskah were a pleasure to have on the show and they were both extremely smart and easy to get along with.  This was our first time having two guests with us and Ophelie and I were very pleased with how it all turned out.  Please let us know what you think about this episode or previous ones, too!

As always, the Double O Podcast is available on iTunes for free.  You can subscribe to us, leave a review, and download all of our episodes anytime, day or night.   

If you’re looking for other posts to help you get through your Monday, I would suggest the following:

Cynwise addresses the scandal behind Chase Christian’s recent post on WoWInsider and whether or not it was really worth getting upset about.

Beruthiel questions if she’s ready to give up blogging just yet.    

Zelmaru tackles a hidden boss in Blackwing Descent and talks about the outcome.

Enjoy!

New Double O Podcast – Episode Five!

29 Jun

Need something to listen to while waiting for the patch to download on your painfully slow Internet connection?  Something to help you pass the time while you farm Firelands trash for rep?  Well, have no fear because Episode 5 of the Double O Podcast is here!

http://thedoubleopodcast.wordpress.com/2011/06/27/episode-5-what-a-long-strange-trip-its-been/

In this episode, Ophelie and I take a step back from the normal routine of having a guest host and sticking to a theme.  It’s just the two of us and we spend most of the episode relaxing and having a chat about her tour through Canada and the U.S. and who she met from the game along the way.  We say goodbye to the previous tier of content and reflect on everything we have experienced from Cataclysm up to this point.  Lastly, we discuss our future plans for 4.2 and beyond.

If you like your O’s a bit more laid back, this is certainly the episode for you.  We had a lot of fun with this one and hopefully you will, too!  

I was also asked to come back for another episode of The Sundering, with Ceraphus and Rayfyst, as Xia was away on her honeymoon and they were worried about that episode turning into a “sausage fest.”  As usual, much scandal was had and I was very pleased with the way it all turned out.

You can tune in to hear Ceraphus and I discuss the new Valor Point cap, Rayfyst’s relationship status, our thoughts on the authenticator change and much more!